To My Preschool Girl

To my Vaughnie on the night before Preschool,

Oh Vaughn, tomorrow you start the next chapter in your childhood, PRESCHOOL. You are so ready, you have been asking what your teacher’s name is since Ellery started school a few weeks ago. Your teacher’s name is Ms. Heather, but you pronounce it Ms. HeFFer which cracks us all up. You are excited about your backpack, puppy dog lunchbox and new shoes. You did very well at Meet the Teacher night and they found you very sweet.

I hadn’t had time to think about you starting preschool until tonight. Up until today I just looked at it as something that had to happen NOW. I unexpectedly needed to start a new job outside the home and therefore preschool was happening at the perfect time possible. Tonight while we snuggled in bed pretending like it was a boat and a car and snuggling your babies it hit me that tomorrow is the beginning of your life outside of me. You will suddenly have this whole world that I’m not part of. New friends, new experiences, new adults you will trust and love. It’s a GOOD THING, but it’s also the end of a chapter for us.

I am genuinely excited for you! I think you will enjoy making new friends and I can’t wait to see how much you learn and grow this year. I pray you always know how much I love you and that you feel safe and happy in your new environment!

Love you FOREVER

Mama

PreK Vaughn

To Ellery Wynn on her First Day of Kinder

To my brilliant, kind, considerate, and confident Ellery Wynn,

Today, my sweet girl, I walked you into your HUGE new school, walked you down hallway after hallway holding your hand so tight and feeling like it was impossible that this day had already arrived. It was time for me to hand you over 7 hours a day, 5 days a week, almost 200 days out of the year to another woman to care for you and teach you. We held it together, you and I didn’t shed a tear, but both of our hearts hurt as we peeled off of one another and I forced myself to walk down the hall away from you.

It has been my absolute honor, privilege and also, sacrifice, staying home with you the past 5 years. It was my dream from the time I was a little girl to be a stay at home mom and I feel absolute gratitude that I got to be with you the majority of the time in your formative infancy and pre-school years.

We had a good run kiddo, we played, imagined, snuggled, read books, made friends, went on countless outings, got to know each other, taught each other a lot. We taught each other SO MUCH about life, love, selflessness, how to slow down and soak up the joy of an ordinary day. I will NEVER regret the years we spent together and I know I will look on them with complete fondness forgetting about all the hard days and remembering only the highlights.

This year I feel led to focus on helping teach you how to make friends, but more importantly how to BE a friend. Our back to school dinner last night focused on that theme and this year we will be committing this verse to memory and focusing on living it out: Ecclesiastes 4:9-11 Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. 10 If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. I will commit to being a better friend too this year.

I will miss you each and everyday. Your sister missed you so much today she repeatedly, in a very sad voice, said, “I lost my Ellery.” We will all adjust. We will settle into our new normal, but for now I’m going to take some time to mourn the end of a beautiful chapter in our relationship. I am excited to watch this next chapter unfold, learn new things about you and enjoy this phase.

I love being your mom and I will LOVE YOU FOREVER!!

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